Journal
Unlearning “Perfection”: A Journal on Finding the True Self.
Hardware Strike: When the body refuses to obey a motivated mind
The fifth and final part of the series. About how I discovered that my paralyzing inability to create is not a psychological failure, but the result of allostatic overload and the destruction of the dopamine system.April 26, 2026Pentalogy of Divided Worlds #5
Dopamine system
Diagnosis: Anatomy of Survival and Assembling the Broken Puzzle
The fourth, diagnostic part of the series. About how I discovered that my unexplained physical and mental failure was not a weakness of will, but a perfect biological adaptation to life under threat.April 22, 2026Pentalogy of Divided Worlds #4
Neurobiology of Stress
Life on Debt: When morning performance turns into emotional bankruptcy
About living on an energy loan, the biological switch between artificial strength and total apathy, and why sleep brings no relief when hope is missing from the system.April 16, 2026Pentalogy of Divided Worlds #3
Emotional exhaustion
Not lighter burdens, but broader shoulders
Understanding the theory of the two arrows and finding the courage to put down what we no longer need to carry, amidst total paralysis.April 12, 2026Pentalogy of Divided Worlds #2
Self-acceptance
Chasing (im)perfection: When the mask of perfection becomes a prison
How the pursuit of extreme perfection and the compensation for inner emptiness led me to absolute paralysis and the loss of the ability to live.April 12, 2026Pentalogy of Divided Worlds #1
Identity Crisis
MXV 2.0
Don't like the rules? Change the game! A new groundbreaking project designated MXV 2.0 has just seen the light of day. A project that has a beginning, but no end.April 1, 2025Pentalogy of Divided Worlds - prequel
Portal to the Depths